A Smoker's pet peeve!

So I have a question for the world.

Who actually wants smokers to quit smoking?

Recently, I decided I should quit. Knowing this would not be the easiest task, I thought I should easy my mind into the idea. For the most part this has worked smashingly up until now. I have weened two cigarettes off my daily habit for a week, and then repeated said process the following week. Currently I have taken myself from a near pack a day habit to 4 little cigs. a day, and am beginning to feel the full affects of withdrawal.

So I thought I would be smart. Seeing as the next week I am only allotted 2 smokes a day (and then really what's the point) I thought I would proceed by getting the last step of the NicoDerm-CQ patch from the store.

As I proceeded to the pharmacy I just stared at the shelf. There was the first step, and the second, but where could that final phase, the glorious number three be. I asked the clerk and not even coming to talk to me, but yelling across counters she replied, "Yeah there are three steps, but we only have what we have out there."

Really people, really. I mean for Gods sake, you can carry every glorified brand of cigarettes known to man in a store, tax us at ridiculous rates for each individual death stick, but you can't provide the final step in a quit system! So really what do you want from me.

Luckily, I have a nice coffee shop near by that allows me to have the best coffee instead of running home and smoking the whole damn pack I have sitting at home. So I will say thanks to Coffee Noir for their coffee and understanding (their baristas are the best almost like a friendly bartender who listens to all your sorrows and woes).

Start knocking on doors.

It's not that I don't know what I want to do, it's that I want to do too many things at once. This week I need to get cracking and focus on the big pictures. I like my free space, but I mean come on, if you can't pay the bills something needs to happen. So the quest for a career continues, but with new and vigorous force.

When I asked for advice from my Mom, she replied, "Its time for you to start knocking on doors." I am going to take this advice and use it in all my crazy endeavors for the rest of January and see where it takes me. I told myself that the year of "30" was the year to put myself out there and take on some challenges. It is time to do just this, and leave the security blanket of the computer behind.

Who knows, you may be hearing from me soon.

Another New Year and I DEFY Resolutions

It's not the resolution itself, it's the fact that the holiday makes us feel as though one day everything will change. The reality is, this should be a yearly process. So my goals have been written down and the long steps, that are the process of accomplishing them, have begun. I have set myself up with quite a few "doossies", but with a bit of planning and initiative I hope this year will not only bring new changes to my physical being (and no, I am not talking lbs. here, and that is all I'm saying for the moment), but also mental, visual, and just pure life altering endeavors.

As you, that are nice enough to read this crazy blog, know I am still continuing the search for a career. I recognize this will take steps and I have to put myself out there (not just applications) this year. So more volunteer work, presentations, writing, research and networking is a must. Health is my next focus this year, with exercise and altering habits already taking priority. The final major goal, finance. How do I own back my debt? I'm tired of having this stress and its resounding affects on my other plans and physical well being. If anyone has any ideas as to how to take care of credit card debt and school loans please let me know.

Well, for now that is all. With all the goals written down, you should be hearing from me shortly either in this blog or the others I write. Best wishes to friends and family with all their goals this year and I hope 2010 brings us all thrilling surprises and adventures.